Rapper Diddy is breaking his silence on the death of model Kim Porter, his former longtime girlfriend and mother of three of his children.
Diddy, born Sean Combs, called the days since Porter's sudden death a "nightmare."
"For the last three days I’ve been trying to wake up out of this nightmare. But I haven’t," he wrote Sunday on Instagram. "I don’t know what I’m going to do without you baby. I miss you so much."
The model and actress, 47, was found unresponsive Thursday in her San Fernando Valley home, where she was pronounced dead, according to the Los Angeles County Department of Medical Examiner-Coroner.
"Sadly, I can confirm the passing of Kim Porter. I ask that you give the families privacy at this time," her representative, Cindi Berger, confirmed to USA TODAY.
Combs, 49, wrote: "Today I’m going to pay tribute to you, I’m going to try and find the words to explain our unexplainable relationship."
His message was accompanied by a touching video of a pregnant Porter and Combs dancing, caressing and kissing during a maternity photo shoot. They have three children together: son Christian, 20, and twin daughters D'Lila Star and Jessie James, who turn 12 next month.
During the minute-long video, Porter and Combs talk about their "black love" and their "beautiful chocolate babies." The music mogul also raised 27-year-old Quincy Brown, Porter's son with singer and record producer Al B. Sure.
Combs elaborated on their relationship Sunday. "We were more than best friends, we were more than soulmates. WE WERE SOME OTHER (expletive)!! And I miss you so much. Super Black Love."
Porter had an on-again, off-again relationship with Combs that spanned a decade. The pair officially called it quits in 2007 after 13 years of dating, but had remained friendly, often spending holidays together. Porter frequently posted photos of Diddy on her Instagram account.
Last week, Porter took to Instagram to share a picture of Diddy with his brood of children. She captioned the image, "Love."