R. Kelly releases 19-minute-long song, 'I Admit' addressing sex abuse allegations

But tell me how they call it pedophile because that s**t is crazy (crazy)

You may have your opinions, entitled to your opinions (opinions)

But really am I supposed to go to jail or lose my career because of your opinion

And if you really, really wanna know/ Her father dropped her off at my show/ And told this boy to put her on stage/ I admit that she was over age/ I admit that I was feelin’ her and I admit that she was feelin’ me/ I admit that that’s the sh– that comes with/ being a celebrity/ I ain’t chasing these ladies/ These ladies are chasing me, yeah.”

"Said I'm abusing these women, what the f*** that's someabsurd s*** (what?)/They're brainwashed, really? (really)/Kidnapped, really? (really)/Can't eat, really? (really)/Real talk, that s*** sound silly (yeah)."

"Now, I admit a family member touched me (touched me, touched me, touched me)/From a child to the age 14, yeah/While I laid asleep, took my virginity/So scared to say something, so I just put the blame on me,

[Verse 1]

I admit I have made some mistakes

And I have some imperfect ways

I admit I helped so many people

Andthem same damn people turned fake

I admit it was so hard to focus

I didn't go to classes

I admit that I dropped out of school

I admit that I wasn't that cool

I admit that I just feel like retiring

I admit that I just don't feel like trying

But all my real n*****s round me keep tellin' me "Kells, f*** that you gotta keep climbing"

I admit it, I admit iti did, I done f***ed with a couple of fans

I admit that I'm a gift and a curse

I admit that I don't go to church

[Chorus]

I admit it, admit it (I)

I admit it, I did it (I)

I admit it, I did (I)

I admit it, Idid, did it

[Verse 2]

I admit it I got so many flaws (yeah)

Told so many lies to these broads (too many lies)

Blew so much money, pop so many bottles, yeah I f***ed a bitch just because (just because)

n*****, I had a hell of a day, but I admit I was in my own way (hell of a day, in my own way)

I admit I had my mom crying over me, what else cana n***** say (uh)

I admit I can't spell for s***

I admit that all I hear is hits (ohh)

I admit that I couldn't read the teleprompter when the Grammy's asked me to present (yeah)

I admit that I love god but wait

It's so much temptation butwait

And mental, the drinking and smoking too much but it helped me get through the day (oh, day)

Won't say no name, I'm not a snitch

But one night at the Ritz, did some s*** I shouldn'tof did (at the Ritz, shouldn't of did)

Went and f***eda n*****'s bitch

I admit, I admit that I did (I did)

I f***ed my girlfriendsbestfriend (oh)

Yeah I tapped that in the back of my Benz (my Benz)

I admit I'm sorry for my sins (my sins)

[Chorus]

I admit it, admit it (I admit it)

I admit it, I did it (I did it, yeah)

I admit it, I did (I)

I admit it, Idid, did it

[Verse 3]

Yeah, I admit I trust people too much (I trust too much, too much, too much)

I admit I can't say such and such

But my lawyers told mesettle this (settle this)

Even though it's bulls*** (it's bulls***)

Kelly, protect your career

All these people in my ear

I admit I been tempted by drugs

I admit that I just need a hug (I)

I admit the devil talk to mesometime, but the devil is not who I trust (yeah, not who I trust)

I been f***ed by so many damn managers, while they push me out front of these cameras (managers, cameras)

All this music got [?], and now they play me like a f***in' amateur

I got a life, yeah, I got a right, yeah

Cancel my shows, that s*** ain't right (shows)

How they gon' say I don't respect these women, when all I've done is represent (30 years)

Take my career and turn it upside down, 'cause you mad I've got some girlfriends (girlfriends)

Hell with this record deal, it ain't worth this s***forreal (yeah, yeah, that's real)

Ain't seen my kids in years, they tryna lock me up like Bill (in years, like Bill)

How much cana n***** take? How much can a n***** pray? (take, pray)

Just wanna do my music, stop stressing me (hell yeah)

Please just let me age gracefully (yeah, yeah)

[Chorus]

I admit it, admit it (I admit it, oh, oh)

I admit it, I did it (I admit it)

I admit it, I did (I admit it, I did it)

I admit it, Idid, did it

[Verse 4]

Yeah, they took my gift and they blind me (blind me)

Wherethe f*** is my money? (where)

Now here comes this big ass conspiracy

But still got my fans,thats a blessing

Listen to heaven, just stay on my grind, and that's 24/7 (yeah)

And I know my mama Joanne is smiling down on me, I put that on every

Been a grown man since age 11 (11)

Mind on theguap since 7 (7)

Rest in peace to my homie Kevin

[Chorus]

I admit it, admit it (I admit it)

I admit it, I did it (I did it, yeah)

I admit it, I did (I)

I admit it, Idid, did it

[Verse 5]

Iadmit, I admit, I'm a freak (freak)

Used to go to strip clubs every week

But whothese n*****s tryna say I am, man I'm loud and I put that on chief

I admit I f*** with all the ladies, that's both older and young ladies (ladies, yeah)

But tell me how they call it pedophile because that s*** is crazy (crazy)

You may have your opinions, entitled to your opinions (opinions)

But really am I supposed to go to jail or lose my career because of your opinion

Yeah, go ahead and stone me, point your finger at me (stone me, yeah, yeah)

Turn the world against me, but only god can mute me (against me, mute me)

I admit that I fired some people (people)

I admit that I hired new people (yeah)

I admit that those people I fired, on my mama, was crooked ass people (yeah, yeah, people)

I admit that I don't own my music (I)

I admit that I wrote on my music (yeah)

Want it back but they don't wanna do it (don't wanna)

What the f*** n*****, I wrote that music (I)

I did that Bump and Grind, I did that 12 Play, I did that Fed Up

I changed the damn game, so I deserve me a fair play, so put some respect on my damn name (fair)

Now remember when you was mad with me? But I ain't never offered her no drink (no drink)

But I admit that she asked me, can I get a little Hennessy? (yeah)

We both turned off our phone, we drinked, out smoked, we talked

I admit that I tore it off (our phone, we talked, it off)

From my good points to my faults (faults)

She said "What about Aaliyah said?"

Love

She said "What about the tape?"

I said hush

I said my lawyer said "don't say noth'"

But I can tell you I've been set up (up)

I admit it, how ever since the first day (first day)

That without knowing that I signed my publishin' away (away)

I admit it, I was young and caught up and so blind, yeah (so blind)

Said I had dyslexia, couldn't read all them contracts, yeah

Now the truth in this message, is I'm a broke ass legend (message, legend)

The only reason I stay on tour, is 'cause I gotta pay my rent (on tour, my)

I never thought it would come to this, to be the most disrespected artist (come)

So I had to write a song about this, 'cause they always take my words and twist it (song)

Believe me its hard to admit all this, but I'm in my feelings about this s*** (oh, oh, yeah, yeah)

But I had to set the f***in' record straight, so (yeah, yeah)

[Chorus]

I admit it, admit it (I admit it)

I admit it, I did it (I did it, yeah)

I admit it, I did (I)

I admit it, I did, did it

[Verse 6]

I admit it, I love Steve Harvey

John Legend, and Tom Joyner

They're doing good in their lives right now, why would they wanna tear down another brother (tear down)

Women show black men some love (yeah)

'Cause black men, we go through enough (oh)

How can we get up off the ground, when we steady tearing each other down (how, oh)

I admit that the devil is busy (busy)

Had some people beside me ain't with me

I admit that I'm gon' do this music up until the Lord come and get me (real talk)

Now, I admit a family member touched me (touched me, touched me, touched me)

From a child to the age 14, yeah

While I laid asleep, took my virginity (sleep, gini')

So scared to say something, so I just put the blame on me

Now here I am, and I'm tryin' my best to be honest (honest)

'Cause the sources out there tryna keep me from bein' an artist

I admit I'm at rock bottom (oh, oh)

And this s*** has rocked my mind (my mind)

I'm calling on my hood, come walk by my side (my hood, oh)

They don't want me to shine, women's group, my god (shine, god)

Now don't get it twisted, I do support 'em, but why they wanna bring down the [?]

Damn, this is breaking my heart (my heart)

'Cause from fathers, mothers, sons, and daughters, I am part of the music culture (yeah, yeah, oh, oh)

Spotify, took me off they playlist (playlist)

I admit that I, been underated (rated)

I'm not convicted, not arrested, my dragged my name in the dirt (nope, oh, yeah, yeah)

All this work to be successful, when you abandon me 'cause of what you heard (yeah, oh, yeah, heard)

I admit that I am not perfect, I never said I was perfect (perfect, perfect)

Said I'm abusing these women, what the f*** that's some absurd s*** (what?)

They're brainwashed, really? (really)

Kidnapped, really? (really)

Can't eat, really? (really)

Real talk, that s*** sound silly (yeah)

And if you really, really wanna know (know)

Her father dropped her off at my show (show)

And told this boy to put her on stage (yeah)

I admit that she was over age (age)

I admit that I was feelin' her and I admit that she was feelin' me (she was feelin' me)

I admit that that's the s*** that comes with being a celebrity (celebrity)

I ain't chasing these ladies, no (no, no)

These ladies are chasing me, yeah (chasing me)

Now I'm only saying all this s***, 'cause how they tryna play me, yeah (yeah, oh)

I admit that this is no disrespect to the parents (no disrespect)

But this is my advice to you 'cause I'm also a parent (parent)

Don't push your daughter in my face, and tell me that it's okay (my face, okay)

'Cause your agenda is to get paid, and get mad when it don't go your way (yeah, go way)

I know y'all look at me like I don't go through things, but I'm human (human)

I know it's hard sometimes, but try to keep in mind that I'm human (human)

f*** all the fortune and fame, forget the name, I'm a human (human)

I can't believe all the under the table s*** they doin' (they doin')

I'm tired the fingers pointed at me (at me)

I'm tired of all this weight on me (on me)

I'm tired of everybody wanting a piece of me, s*** I'm not an ATM machine (yeah, no, hey)

What do I do when I can't do what I do? (what)

How can I win, when I can't win with truth? (oh)

Got a couple of dead homies, that I promised would make it out this s*** (sorry)

And I don't think God's hands is on me n*****, I'm gonna make it out this s***

No weapon formed against me (amen)

Shall prosper (amen)

Not claiming (amen)

The storms over (amen)

I admit I talked to Ms. McGlenn (yeah)

FYI, that's my second mother (mama)

I admit that I asked her how I'm gonna get the world off my shoulder (oh)

She said son, don't you lose it (lose it)

Sometimes you gotta go through it (through it)

They can say what they say, but at the end of the day, they cannot deny your music (oh, woah)

'Cause your music, has touched people, it inspired, all people (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

Overseas, everywhere (yeah, yeah)

Don't worry, don't care (care)

'Cause the anointed is on you, and that's why these haters is at you (on you, at you)

So keep on doing you baby, you don't have to give these fools an explanation (yeah, yeah, oh)

[Chorus]

I admit it, admit it (I admit it)

I admit it, I did it (I did it, yeah)

I admit it, I did (I)

I admit it, I did, did it

[Verse 7]

What's the definition of a cult?

Whats the definition of a sex slave?

Go to the dictionary, look it up

Let me know I'll be here waiting

Now I admit that I got some girls that love me to pull they hair (they hair)

Now I admit that they love me to talk dirty when I pull they hair (they hair)

Some like me to spank 'em

Some like to get branded

And what some of these girls want, is too much for the radio station

Look I'm just a man y'all (man y'all)

Not a monster or beast (no, no)

But I admit there are times when these girls so fine, they'll chill with a n***** for a week (oh, for a week)

Now I admit I love Hugh Hefner (Hugh Hefner)

Through the years supported Hugh Hefner (yeah)

But when he left this world, he had a million girls, but we gon' always love Hugh Hefner (yeah, oh)

To Jim DeRogatis, whatever your name is (whatever your name is)

You been tryna destroy me for 25 whole years (25 whole years, yeah)

Writin' the same stories over and over against (stories, stories, yeah)

Off my name, you done went and made yourself a career (a whole career)

But guess what? I pray for you and family, and all my other enemies (prayed for you, enemies)

I'm not gonna let y'all steal my joy, I'm just gon' keep on doing me (my joy, doing me)

Now I don't know what else to say except, I'm so falsely accused

Tell me how can you judge, when you've never walked in my shoes

So easy to mess up, someone else's life

So show me the other devil in disguise

I admit I miss my brothers (brothers)

But I admit they weren't acting like brothers (brothers)

Yeah, we've had our differences, but you don't turn on your brother (no)

For nothing, for no one, nada, mama, Joanne, is watching (no, no, no, no, no)

She must be turning over in her grave (yeah)

I admit I had to borrow a couple of M's from the label (label)

All these hits out but I couldn't put food on the table (table)

I was told I had to sell my cars, I was told I couldn't get a loan (cars, loans)

Said I owed 20 million to the IRS and they were coming to get my home (oh, oh)

I admit I was feeling stupid, standing the home wood seats (no disrespect)

Sippin' Hennessy, tryna figure out what happened to me (happened to me)

There was so much going through my head, 'cause I knew that something wasn't right (my head, wasn't right)

I just couldn't put my finger on it, but my spirit had better eyes (no, better)

It told me what it saw, and it scared the s*** out of me (saw, me, yeah)

It said get rid of them all, it's nothing but vultures round me (all, me)

I admit that I love my fans, for all the push and support they've shown (my fans)

I admit if it wasn't for them, I wouldn't have never stayed strong (for them, oh)

Now I'm not trippin' on all of these rumors, that don't bother me

And I'm not paying attention to these haters, that don't bother me (oh, oh)

But what blows me is when certain people turn phony (phony)

They say Rob, "I got your back", Rob, "you the man"

But they really doubting me, bitch you know who you are

Bitch I bought you a car, bitch you stayed in my crib (yeah, yeah)

I loved you with all my heart (my heart)

Now I don't like to brag when it comes to me, but I've given back to the community (comes to me, community)

From the non profit to the charities, but of course you never hear that about me (charities, about me)

To them n*****s that drink my liquor and smoke my stogies

How come you ain't on Facebook pickin' up for me

While you round me most of the day, when you know I'm a good brother

Always got your hands out, it ain't no doubt that y'all n*****s ain't nothing but blood suckas (yeah)

'Cause y'all ain't bringing nothing to the table (no, no)

Yeah n*****, and you know it's real talk (real talk)

Taking pictures with me for your Instagram but when I need you, you quick to get lost (can't find you)

Mm, ohh, mm, oh, oh, oh, no, no, ooh, woah

Robert, Jay, and Joanne, my kids

What you hearin' out here about dad, guys I'm sorry for this (sorry)

I'm so sorry, I can't imagine what y'all must be going through (oh, through)

Everyday it's somethin' about me, my god, it must be killin' you (killin' you)

I promise there'll be better days, just keep walkin' straight (there'll be better days, just keep walkin' straight)

I know you must be worried but just know that I'm okay (oh, I'm okay)

For me, things has gone rough (rough)

Right now I can't say too much (say too much)

But for y'all I will stay tough (oh, oh)

Daddy just need y'all to trust, and believe in me (trust, in me)

I admit that I told the truth (told the truth)

And still not free

Still won't hate me (yeah)

Still won't stone me (stone me, yeah)

Still won't chain me (chain me, yeah)

I think they won't kill me

[Chorus]

I admit it, admit it (I admit it)

I admit it, I did it (I did it, yeah)

I admit it, I did (I)

I admit it, I did, did it

[Verse 8]

Now, no disrespect to Chi-Town, my home (my home)

But we've got to learn how to support our own (our own)

I admit that my heart cries for my city (my city)

'Cause we're losing young lives in our city (my city)

Instead of judging me, y'all should be using me (judging me, using me)

To help these kids, raise them out of depression and poverty (oh, oh)

Now I'm not saying I'm no savior, but I can be an inspiration (no savior, inspiration)

This is an invitation

Man I admit I go through so much day to day (day to day)

Got 23 lawyers, 3 or 4 managers, what am I doing? Show me the way (oh)

The only thing I have left is my voice, and now I have to use it for my protection (my voice, yeah)

'Cause they left me no choice (no choice)

See my work has nothing to do with my private life

So stay the f*** out of my business and tend to your own damn life (life)

So go head and say what you want to say, about who I want to date (want to say, I want to date)

But you won't say that s*** to my face, 'cause you know it ain't no s*** to say (to my face, oh, oh)

Next n***** bring me some dumb s***, is gon' end up a misunderstanding (dumb s***, yeah)

'Cause n*****s they listen to dumb s*** (dumb s***)

A n*****s that be on that dumb s*** (dumb s***)

They need a life 'cause they ain't got no life, so they always come through with them dumb s***

Blockin' my path, they don't know the half, so they makin' assumptions (path, half, assumptions)

Since when do assumptions, cost a man his whole career (since when? whole career)

Found guilty when you're innocent, is the only time [?]

There is one thing that's for sure, and I want to make this s*** clear (for sure, clear)

I done lived my voice and represented my country for 31 f***in' years (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Damn it I admit

[Outro]

I admit, I admit, I admit (yeah)